Blogs and Thoughts

Reading other people's blog inspires me to write something too. I consider it as a past time, apart from food and food blogging, that's why I'm an avid fan of so many blogs right now. It keeps my brainwaves alive and healthy too, now that I'm out of school permanently.

Last night I've read something about "The one that got away". The blogger wrote, as I quote "Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose".

It made me think of my own life, naturally. The one who got away supposed to be someone who entered your life, but due to certain circumstances it just didn't work out. Thinking about it now, there's one person who enters my mind when the phrase "the one that got away" is uttered. But, it wasn't at all perfect, the timing wasn't even wrong, there's certainly a lot of fault with the person, but the chemistry, of course,  I can't deny.
That person was the one who I was able to tell everything too, someone who, when we're together,  I can just be myself. I even started building a future with that person. But some shit happens and you're there, rebuilding your future plans without that person in it.

I've long before accepted that's just how life works. People come and go, and more often that not, you get fucked. Yes, there's always the "what ifs" and "what might have been". I do think a lot of what ifs from my past. What if I did that or I did those, will anything be different? I imagine it sometimes, if I have ample thinking time. What if I was still with that person today. In my mind it will always be paradise, a lot of laughter and happiness.  But ho, I've lived in this world long enough to know that in reality it will never be like that. There's always a reason why the person is not in your life anymore. If it didn't work out, well, its just not meant to be.
The blogger, whom I got the whole "the one that got way" thing also asked: "What if its not too late?". It's such a romantic way of dealing with it. I guess the blogger was truly a romantic at heart (I know her personally so I'd rather not talk about her). It got me thinking, if the world reverses and you do go back to the past, and God permits you to finally relive that "What if".Will you, in turn, think about the other side, the "what if  it didn't work out?" Haha. Call me an unbeliever of love, but I bet when you're in it it wouldn't be all peaches and cream.

Yes, I may be jaded, and there's certainly no romance flowing in my veins anymore.

Still, given my murky view of lovers and relationships, there are times, like today, that its comforting to just dream about the one that got away...but that's as far as I'm willing to go.


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